Thursday, 8 September 2016

Anxious Fran | Post Lunch Panic

My relationship with food is an odd one; I love it, but actually eating it can sometimes be problematic. So I thought I would share with you my experiences with 'post food panic attacks'.

Monday, 13 June 2016

Anxious Fran Abroad | When In Paris...

A couple of weeks back I spent 36 fabulous hours in Paris.
It was my 27th birthday and I guess if I was any other person this trip would have been a surprise, but this is me and I hate surprises (no, really); so I was told about it a few weeks in advance so that I could mentally prepare.

Tuesday, 7 June 2016

Anxious Fran | What's In My 'EAK'?

What is an EAK I hear you ask? 

It is safe to say I am a well prepared (ok, slightly over prepared) lady who is ready for most eventualities and my EAK, also known as my 'emergency anxiety kit', is something that I carry round with me in my handbag, or rucksack (who am I kidding, I am a rucksack girl) at almost all times. It is full of items that I use on those occasions when anxiety or panic strike and I am least expecting it. 

|Rucksack from FJÄLLRÄVEN; Kånken Mini in Deep Red.|

Wednesday, 4 May 2016

"We Haven't Visited The Car For a While"

When I first started to suffer with anxiety and panic attacks I would ALWAYS want someone with me. Now I am the opposite; I choose to take myself away from others and ride the anxiety out alone. I do this so that nobody has to watch, comment or try their hardest to help me, when all I need them to do is sit next to me in silence. Dealing with anxiety in private makes me feel less embarrassed (panic attacks aren't pretty for anyone), I feel less guilt about ruining other peoples 'moment' AND I find it helps me relax more.

Normally this is fine; I live with one housemate (a best friend of four years who gets it all), so I consider my home to be my personal space or a "safe place" where I can be as anxious as I like. The thought of having to stay somewhere else (even if it is for a leisurely trip) gets me anxious. The thing I value most about my "safe place" is that I don't have to take myself away, I can just be.

So, picture this... a weekend away in a holiday home, living in close vicinity with ten other people (whom I love dearly) and five dogs (that I also love dearly, but happen to be allergic to - *takes inhaler*). Exciting?... yes! Nerve wracking... definitely!

Thursday, 21 April 2016

'Aeroplane Mode'

Anyone who's mind spends 95% of it's time in overdrive (like mine does) will know what I mean when I say that sometimes the urge to temporarily shut everyone out is overwhelming. 
My saviour in these times of mental haziness... aeroplane mode.